I feel like I'm in a movie

Artist: Coldplay

Song: Yellow

Look at the stars,

Look how they shine for you,

And everything you do,

Yeah they were all yellow,

I came along

I wrote a song for you

And all the things you do

And it was called yellow

So then I took my turn

Oh all the things I've done

And it was all yellow

Your skin

Oh yeah your skin and bones

Turn into something beautiful

D'you know you know I love you so

You know I love you so

I swam across

I jumped across for you

Oh all the things you do

Cause you were all yellow

I drew a line

I drew a line for you

Oh what a thing to do

And it was all yellow

Your skin

Oh yeah your skin and bones

Turn into something beautiful

D'you know for you i bleed myself dry

For you i bleed myself dry

Its true look how they shine for you

look how they shine for you

look how they shine for you

look how they shine for you

look how they shine for you

look how they shine

look at the stars

look how they shine for you

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Just finished reading archives on Woon's blog. From the earliest to the latest. Dunno how to explain. Just that in the earlier posts, well, he posted a lot. Maybe it was due to his 'boredom'; as in not having much to do (or not having a gf to occupy most of his time hehe). But anyway, it the 'earlier' posts, he was always mentioning about how he wished to have someone to loved and to be loved in return, and the sweeet (sarcasism intended) girls he met along the way.

*sigh* Sweet, cute, a smile that just melts the heart, mature, easy to get along with and good humoured, just a littttle shy, but just reaaaaalllyyy swwweeeeeeettttttttttttt!!!!!! *sigh*

That was the kind of girl he has always wanted. (Flashback) I've asked him this question before when we were chatting online before we got together. And I was checking if I had those qualities he just mentioned to me - one by one. Apparently, I'm not sweet :P

Anyway, in short, just wanna say, in the 'earlier' posts, he sounded as if he was lonely and, well, maybe not so happy and contended in life. He was practically ranting just about anything :P Anyway, as I read on, I was hoping he would've written something about me when he met me - just like how he wrote about other girls.

I saw an angel at church today.. a really sweet angel!! Never realized she was that sweet looking... *sighhhh* hehe :)

But of course, he met me online. Still, I was hoping he would've have written something about me, like how he met this really nice girl online or something, y'know? But then again, I've read the archives before, like, 3 yrs back. And I never read what I was hoping for. The only post about me (prior to our coupleship), was this:

Been thinking of so many random things nowadays... should be like doh since i rant about random things while typing too.... *shrugs*Was thinking about how hard it is to be apart from someone you love so much, how hard it is not to talk to that person for a long time... does distance really make the heart fonder? But yea I guess though how hard it is... still gotta live with it... have to be able to spend time apart from each other sometimes ... it's gonna happen someday anyway...

Another thing i've been thinking about is... when and if i get into a relationship and if it's time or if i have to let go... would I be able to? I know for sure once I fall deeper and deeper it gets harder and harder to let go... took me more than a year to even let go of someone who I just liked and who didn't even like me the way I liked her... i guess i fall in too easily but when it comes to letting go, it's a hard thing....

hmm... is there such a term as a 'love addict'? Cuz if there was... I would be one... was just watching a tv series 'Matchmaker' (look i even watch these kind of series lol) and there was these people who are 'love addicts' and also a support group 'love addict's anonymous' (something like the AA - alcoholic's anonymous) for love addicts... Well it's a tv series and coud be a fictional or a made-up thingy... but yea .... in the series they described love addicts as people who are addicted to the euphoria, joy, and all that blend of emotions and feelings felt while in love... *shrugs*

Well, at least I would wanna think it is about me cos when he wrote this post, it was during our 'break' of one-week. Then, I had decided to not go online (truth is, I went online but was on invisible mode and removed him from my visible list :P) in order to stop talking to him until he comes back. We had a date to watch Riverdance that Sunday of the week. So meaning, the time I had made that decision, was exactly a week before he was coming back to KL; and meeting me for the first time. The reason I didn't wanted to talk to him anymore was cos I found myself falling for him. I know if I were to talk to him more, I would fall deeper for him. And yet, I have never met him. I wasn't sure if I would like his outlooks. And I didn't wanna hurt him.

[Comment to the last paragraph of Woon's blog: A love addict is some who cannot live without the feeling of being loved and all. Thus, he would just date anyone, and perhaps, marry, regardless of the partner's personality. If you are one, baby, it sure doesn't sound good to me]

Back to my point. It was after this post, the following posts were different compared to the previous ones. They were filled with more joy and happiness. And they constantly sound my name. :) Which, of course, I am glad about. Not that I'm praising myself or what. But I do remember I've been told that after we got together, he became happier; or seemed to be a happier person. At the end of the blog, he quoted the first line of Yellow.

"Look at the stars, and how they shine for you, and everything you do"

I started daydreaming. Saw us both in this place called my house's car porch (don't ask me why. I know it's supposed to be some greenery or a night filled with stars or some fairytale land or whatever) and Woon was looking at me, smiling, apparently contented and happy for what he is seeing. Me looking back at him, smiling too, knowing that he wants me and that makes him happy.Of course, with the song playing in the background. I just suddenly felt like I was in a movie. I wish I am. I wish we were. I wish it is as simple as that. I wish whatever I read today, and how I felt after reading everything, is the same as how the author of the blog intended to portray it.

By the way, I feel happy after reading it. :)

"The greatest thing to do, is to love, and be loved in return"