Goodbye

It may be the end. But I am not regretting what we went through for the past 3years, or almost. It surely wasn't a waste of time and feelings. You know it well how I felt about you.

It has always been the distance. I've said that a million times. And everytime, you just tell me, "There's nothing I can do." Of course, there isn't much. I know.

3years is long. Longer than anyone else we know that had a long distance relationship.

I still remember the first time we decided to meet up outside McD's in Sentral. You didn't recognise me until I smiled at you. And the first thing you said to me was, "Looking for someone?"

I still remember the first time we kissed. You were like, "Omg..it soo niice being in love." You were being dreamy already.

I still remember we bumped into a friend of yours before the play and when she asked if I was your girlfriend, you were being shy and all but in the end introduced me to her.

I still remember the first time you had to fly back. That was a hard time to let you go. Even though it was only for 6months.

I remember you told me about the dream you had after that. You and I were just walking in the mall, holding hands and laughing. And then you woke up crying. You knew you'll miss those times and you knew you cannot be there for me anytime.

3 years down the lane. And so many things to remember. Never once I regretted loving you, being with you. Never once I thought I was just wasting my feelings and time. Being with you changed me. Made me realise myself. Knew myself deeper. And knew you better as well.

I don't believe this is one of the things that went wrong in your life. I believe this is something you can learn from. It certainly have taught me well. It certainly have made me more mature. And it certainly have made me realise that I was not just lucky to have you. I was blessed.

But I just have to let you go cos I really don't know how to handle this far away distance anymore. We grow up. Schedules get tighter. Things change. What you want, you don't get anymore. And the distance just adds to the wound.

I really hope you can understand why.

Goodbye, no use leading with our chins
This is where our story ends
Never lovers, ever friends
Goodbye, let our hearts call it a day
But before you walk away
I sincerely want to say

I wish you bluebirds in the spring
To give your heart a song to sing
And then a kiss, but more than this
I wish you love

And in july a lemonade
To cool you in some leafy glade
I wish you health
But more than wealth
I wish you love

My breaking heart and I agree
That you and I could never be
So with my best
My very best
I set you free

I wish you shelter from the storm
A cozy fire to keep you warm
But most of all when snowflakes fall
I wish you love
But most of all when snowflakes fall
I wish you love

I wish you love
I wish you love, love, love, love, love
I wish you love