I've turned nocturnal

Woke up at 4pm today. Like OMG!!! Can't believe I actually slept that long. Well, not the first time but I didn't expect myself to sleep that long this time. I guess it's cos of the preparation for Friday's design interim when we did not get enough sleep; some of us not at all, plus the tired eyes I had after all the crying I made on the same night, and the hanging out till 10.30pm and sleeping at 5am. :)

Wanted to do my drawing but somehow I got caught up at Ash's DVD. Watched "A Walk To Remember" again. Oh, it was Soo Yee's DVD cos it was written TSY on the CD. :P Then KC called to ask me to go see Kingdom of Heaven. Y'know what? I slept in the cinema. Hehe...dunno why. Not enough sleep I guess :P Haha..what crap. Slept for the first hour. So don't come and ask me if the movie was nice or good. I can't tell ya :P This is the second time I've slept in the cinema. The first was when I was 15, watching Chicken Run's sneak preview. Since there wasn't anyone in the cinema, I slept on my side with a jacket over me while Jasmine was laughing her ass off to the movie. Seriously, I was tired. It was a Sunday and I had to wake up darn early for church. I've always hated that :P Not the church part but the waking up early part. So you now know why I'm lazy to go to church now :P

After the movie, we met with Paul to go yam cha. Unbelievably, we chatted right up to 5am. The movie ended at about 1.30am. We just have so much to talk about. But KC was so anxious to go home cos he needed to finish up his assignments. Why? Cos tummy was aching on Friday :P

Paul's Kancil is nice weh!! Modified with Daihatsu engine. Really fast. Can really feel the power, unlike Eunice's modified Putra, can feel the power also but it's as if something's wrong. Or probably not the car, but her the way she drives a faster car :P Dunno. Know nuts about cars. Or probably cos Kancil is smaller, so can feel the power enveloping you, or something.

To me, Paul's this person who very talented, curious and qualified in a various fields. Dunno how to explain but he's very good in a lot of things. He's like this high profile person to me. As a mentor, that would be good. :)

Right now, I'm at Ashley's again. Dunno when I can go back to my house cos I can't seem to find my keys anywhere in this room. She told me she hung it on the wall but I don't see it on any of the walls in this house. Guess I'll have to wear what is on my back now, don't remove my make up and go to church in the morning. Oh, probably gonna stay awake till it's time to go too. But that most likely would not happen cos I'll only have to leave at about 8.30am. Hopefully, that's around the time Ash comes back, or at least wakes up. Tired eyes. Guess I'm gonna hit the bed soon. Been sleeping here for days already. It's like I've already shifted in before the day I'm supposed to - 'cept that I'm not sleeping in my own room :P and using my own things. Hehe..

Oh yea, talked to Vickram about Woon and I. He mentioned something about there's only one person to change your life, but you also have many options in life. It's like, you have options. Pick one and it doesn't fit, pick another one. But you only need one person to change you. Hmm, something to ponder on. Oh btw, good luck to you and Amanda :)

Paul can also fortell your future and talk about your personality. He told me I'd be surrounded by men in the future, as in when I need help, the peopl who would help me, would be men. I tend to attract men easily, and sometimes I don't notice it myself. i have good communication skills and I tend to communicate better with men, which is true :P I tend to interact with the opposite sex better. But i've always thought everyone should feel the same since opposite attracts.

He also mentioned about how lucky I am cos since young, I've been given the best of everything in my family. Dunno about that but I would like to believe that cos I've always thought I havent been given enough, or at least what I wanted. I know I should be contented with I have but there have been times when I did not understood why I haven been given what I wanted. I guess I just have to keep seeing things in a brighter perspective. I mean like education. Why of all places LUCT? Although it's expensive and my family's financial is not stable, they still choose to send me here cos they thought it was the best place I could go - to receive the best education i can ever get. They have to go through all the hassle to collect funds for my study. Like my mom still have to work her ass off until I graduate. And my bro who is currently supporting every single person in the family at this moment. He's 26 and soon has to get married, I suppose. But whatever he earns now, a big portion comes back to my parents and me.

Paul also mentioned about me not worrying about my financial standings. I do think about them but I do not worry because I know my parents can provide, which is quite true. I sometimes think about them, like just now, while talking about my parents and my bro. But I'm not worried. I was just appreciating them for all that they have done and reminding myself to repay them after I graduate. I never worried about my money, unless I'm broke and have no more fund in my account. And that is the time I'd call my parents up. :P

And then, I usually go to a friend to talk about my problems, and that I call that friend everyday. Well, I do certainly go to a friend everytime I have news but I don't call her everyday, do I, Jas? MSN mebbe la but not like she's online everyday oso wert...and not like I'm at me desk 24/7 oso :P Hehe...

He said that I need someone to push me from behind to do my work. I just won't do the work myself. I need someone to push. And I'm indecisive and have low self confidence. I'll ask for confirmation from a few people before I confirm something myself, cos I'm afraid of being wrong; which is so true!!! :P He also said I'm not sensitive. He did not elaborate on this but my friends think it's true. A bad sign for me. Even my dad said that to me before, but y'know, I never listened to him. He said I'm not able to understand Woon's problems cos of this. I think it can be true because I never understood his problems. Somehow, I could not understand him well; up till now.

The worst thing he has ever told me was that Woon and I - our relationship would not last until I'm 25. At that moment, I wanted to cry. I just couldn't believe my ears as I expected something nice from him. Well, not something I would want to believe but it's just heart breaking. He said it's cos I have not gained enough experience from having a relationship as I'm very serious in this relationship. Doesn't sound any logical to me but he added that Woon doesn not meet the level that I expect him to be. I found that may be true because I've always been complaining to my friends about some of his attitude that don't satisfy me enough. But of course, that doesn't mean I have to believe what Paul said about not being with him till 25. My weakness in here is that I hate to let go because I'm quite 'keberatan' of him...like mm seh tak, which is quite true. I'd hate to let him go cos to me, he's a rare breed. It's just some of him that annoys me. Paul mentioned about me liking guys that have plans for the future. In my case, he said Woon doesn't plan. He's this kind of person who likes to go with the flow. I dunno about that clearly. But before I met Woon, I was that kind of person. I never thought about marrying him or anything. It was only after we got together, he mentioned about marrying me, only I gave it a serious thought about it. I guess I'm just too serious now.

The only thing wrong he said about me is that I tend to like younger guys. I was like no!! I like older guys...as in more matured guys. Guys who knows how to think maturedly. Never liked younger guys. Unless they're matured. But that would make me feel small oso ler...I think :P He also mentioned about me being homesick and all. I was like, "Never! But mebbe once." and then he said, "Oh that's cos your parents are not far away from you. Try living overseas." That was pure psychology and common sense!! :p Oh, and he said I'm Mommy's girl. Either one - Daddy or Mommy. And that's where the lucky part came in. Everything else he said is either ture, or I don't know myself and have to think about it. Sigh, why did I even hear about my life?