This morning was not a good start ahead. Well, not that I woke up at the wrong side of the bed but I went to bed after having to face the worst nightmare I'd ever had in life. Don't know what was wrong with me. Don't know what was in my mind then. Don't know what I was playing with. But it certainly affected someone deeply. Sigh...
I'm really regretting the whole thing. Not like regret is helpful, but I really wished this was all a dream. And when I wake up, everything is back to normal. I'd still be preciously loved by the only love of my life, whom have always trusted me and had a huge faith in our relationship. Sadly, it's not a dream. It's a nightmare I created. And when I wake up, everything will not be the same again. It's nightmare come true :P
To date, it's the worst thing I've ever done in my entire life. Seriously, don't know what went through my mind then. Now I'm so screwed. My bad. I messed up everything; everything I've won, now probably lost. Most importantly, I've betrayed the trust he had on me. Not forgetting very much disappointing him at the same time.
Don't know what else to say. Don't know what else to think. Let's just say, yea I suck. F***.
2 comments:
hi julia...don't know what you regret...and it doesn't matter. you don't suck...nobody ever sucks. whatever life deals you, whatever your mistake or regret is...try not to give yourself a hard time. life is too short :D
just saw your blog by clicking next from mine..hope you don't mind the comment. i just don't like to see someone hurt.
stephen in edinburgh
Thanx for dropping by :)
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